you strum the strings of my imagination.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Parental Advisory. (R21)

under your skin feels like home says:
you gimme a msg k
i vibrate for you
i mean
my phone
under your skin feels like home says:
esp my hips
-GYRATESLIKEAMADFUCK
under your skin feels like home says:
omg,
im sorry that came out
hahahahahahahahahahhahhaa
words fail me easily
under your skin feels like home says:
my hips dont lie baby

under your skin feels like home says:
omg so SIU lan
shameful penis

under your skin feels like home says:
wanna see my panties
HAHAHHAHA
they got my pretty star ponies yo

Beer. A place in your heart where I used to be. says:
and you really are my fantasy girl
Beer. A place in your heart where I used to be. says:
im gonna declare it to the world
Beer. A place in your heart where I used to be. says:
ure my wildest dreams unfurled
under your skin feels like home says:
im unbuttoning my negligee now
under your skin feels like home says:
welcome to my world

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Tell me, how can I not love her this much?
I Love my tchotchke!!
Capital L yo!
I've found My Fantasy Love.
You should be mine, baby. :D

11:35 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Entry dedicated to Ms Andrea Hui.
(Bolded for emphasis/importance, and so that you can actually read)

A picture says a thousand words
3 pictures = 3000 words
3 thousand words to ultimately convey 3 words
3 thousand divided by 3 equals to
A thousand 'I Miss You's.

And as if that's not adequately blatant,
Stupid bitch. Quit being so happy and contact me soon!

4:35 AM

Monday, October 23, 2006

im walking down broadway
each footstep is a new love letter
im trying to make eye contact
with each and every stranger that i pass
im thinking about the city
its living proof people need to be together
im thinking about how i just wanna open up
and give and give and give

and its ok for you to care
cos i can feel you in the air
and while you wonder
how's this gonna end
i only wanted to begin

im thinking about desire
ive had to learn how to sin successfully
im thinking about bliss
and bliss is all dressed up and there's no one to dance with
remembering her smile
and the nuclear bomb and the reasons i loved her
im walking through central park
im in a foreign country and im waiting for a sign

and its ok for you to care
cos im not going anywhere
and while you wonder
if you should let me in
i only wanted to begin

im still singing
twisting new melodies, breaking arrangements
im thinking about my heart
i guess youve heard, sometimes its heavy
but i just keep moving
when i hit a wall i look up at the sky
im thinking about my maker
and despite all this i know she wont give up on me

and its ok for you to care
cos i can taste you everywhere
and while its true all straight things must bend
i only wanted to begin

my heart singing the notes of yearning
in dreaming only would we be
maybe i'll remain this way
bliss in hypnagogic reality

3:27 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

The Life Path 6 suggests that you entered this plane with tools to become the ultimate nurturer, and a beacon for truth, justice, righteousness, and domesticity. Your paternal, or maternal, as the case may be, instincts with a 6 Life Path exceed all others by a considerable margin. Whether in the home or in the work place, you are the predominant caretaker and family head. While the 6 may assume significant responsibilities in the community, the life revolves around the immediate home and family, for this is the most domestic of numbers. Conservative principles and convictions are deeply ingrained and define your character.

You are idealistic and must feel useful to be happy. The main contribution you make is that of advice, service, and ever present support. You are a humanitarian of the first order. It is your role to serve others, and you start in the home environment. You are very human and realistic about life, and you feel that the most important thing in your life is the home, the family and the friends.

This is the Life Path related to leadership by example and assumption of responsibility, thus, it is your obligation to pick up the burden and always be ready to help. If you are like the majority with Life Path 6, you are one who will willingly carry far more than your fair share of any load, and you are always there when needed. In doing so, you take ownership and often become an authority over the situation.

In romance, the 6 is loyal and devoted. A a caretaker type, you are apt to attract partners who are somewhat weaker and more needy than yourself; someone you can care for and protect. The main ingredient that must prevail in the relationship is complete harmony. You don't function well in stressful relationships that become challenges for you to control. It is the same with friends, you are loyal and trustworthy. But there is a tendency for you to become dominating and controlling.

It's likely you feel compelled to function with strength and compassion. You are a sympathetic and kind person, generous with personal and material resources. Wisdom, balance, and understanding are the cornerstones of your life, and these define your approach to life in general. Your extraordinary wisdom and the ability to understand the problems of others is apt to commence from an early age. This allows you to easily span the generation gap and assume an important role in life early on.

The number 6 Life Path actually produces few negative examples, but there are some pitfalls peculiar to the path. You may have a tendency to become overwhelmed by responsibilities and a slave to others, especially members of you own family or close friends. It's easy for you to fall into a pattern of being too critical of others; you also have a tendency to become to hard on yourself. The misuse of this Life Path produce tendencies for you to engage in exaggeration, over-expansiveness, and self-righteousness. Modesty and humility may not flow easily. Imposing one's views in an interfering or meddling way must be an issue of concern.

The natural burdens of this number are heavy, and on rare occasions, responsibility is abdicated by persons with this Life Path 6. This rejection of responsibility will make you feel very guilty and uneasy, and it will have very damaging effects upon your relationships with others.

4:54 AM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

OKAY.

FINALLY uploaded the pictures.
They can be found where all my other albums are, under teetwograd.
but for convenience's sake,
here.

Classic Highlight.

My favourite photo.
Just look at Freda. So Glamorous and Elegant. :D

6:06 AM

Friday, October 20, 2006

Results from my 2nd Colorgenics Test.

You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless.. You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.

You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.

You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid direct confrontation at all costs.

Matters have not gone well for you. You are experiencing severe stress trying to guard yourself from further disappointments. It would seem that all of your hopes and dreams have not been realised and you are now beginning to doubt yourself. You no longer wish to be further advised by anyone and you insist on going it alone - to control your own destiny. Even though deep down you doubt whether things will get better in the future you have one consolation - and that is that they couldn't possibly get worse. Unwilling to give up anything that you possess, you are looking for some sort of security as a protection against any further setback or loss of position and prestige. You are so negative that you tend to exaggerate your problems and refuse to accept any advice from so called well-meaning friends.

You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety. You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realised. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see.

Absofuckinglutely irrefutable.

12:34 AM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

(On the bus on the way to town)
Mel: Which is heavier -- 50kg of metal or 50kg of cotton?
Cin: Ahhh this is a trick question. I will think about it.
Cin: Hmmmm.
Cin: Cotton!!
Mel & Belle: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

And they say wisdom grows with age.
This birthday girl doesn't seem wise AT ALL.
Much loved though. (: (:

I will miss them both so so much.
Not forgetting the girl who sits besides me and pats my head while I'm asleep.
I wanna go back to schooooollll. :(

11:56 PM

Monday, October 16, 2006

Word of the day.
Tchotchke
Pronounced chahch-kuh
1. a mistress
2. inexpensive souvenir

Wtf. Can you even pronounce that?
Hahaha. Sho funnaye.

I haven't uploaded my graduation pictures yet.
Have been too sick to get out of bed to do it so in the meantime, this is all from the courtesy of Mel, my fellow tomato. Wouldn't it be ironic if I've graduated from CJ but I failed my As? I might be prescient.

Nevertheless, it's always the thought of the diminishing of constants that tugs on our heartstrings, especially when the constants have inadvertently grown so much on you. Never thought leaving CJ would be such an emo issue. :/

Freda, wait till I upload the similar picture on my cam. Your Lip-smackin' ---. Sweeeet. Hahaha.

I'm gonna miss them the mosttttt. :(
(By the way, this is evidence that smoking pot the way mands does, you'll be ascending to heaven like her too. Hahahaha.)

Tell me, how can anyone not love them? (:

The reason why I love school.

I promise I'll upload the rest of the pictures soonish.

9:06 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Got a picture of you
I carry in my heart
Close my eyes and see it
When the world gets dark
Got a memory of you
I carry in my soul
I wrap it close around me
When the nights get cold.

If you asked me how I'm doing
I'd say just fine
But the truth is baby
If you could read my mind.

Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you
After all this time
You're still with me it's true, ohh
Somehow you remain
Locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby
Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you.

I still wait for the phone
In the middle of the night
Thinking you might call me
If your dreams don't turn out right
And it still amazes me
That I lie here in the dark
Wishing you were next to me
With your head against my heart.

Minutes turn to hours
And the hours turn to days
Seems it's been forever
That I've felt this way.

Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you.

12:32 AM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

If I wrote you a symphony
Just to say how much you mean to me
(What would you do?)

If I told you, you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular?
(Tell me would you?)

Well baby I've been around the world
But I aint seen myself another girl
(Like you)

This ring here represents my heart
But there is just one thing I need from you
(Saying I do)

Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love

(So don't give away)
My love
(So don't give away)
My love
(So don't give away)

Ain't no other woman that could take your spot

Now If I wrote you a love note
And make you smile with every word I wrote
(What would you do?)

Would that make you wanna change your scene?
And wanna be the one on my team
(Tell me would you?)

See what's the point in waiting anymore
Cause girl I've never been more sure
(That baby it's you)

This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you been waiting for
(Just saying I do)

Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love

12:23 AM

Friday, October 06, 2006

Take me back

When I was fat and ugly

And had all the love in the world.

3:02 PM

No, I haven't been well.
In all aspects you can think of.

I don't know which hurts me more
The fact that I am incapacitated to excel
or the fact that I won't be able to be with you then.

I don't know how I got here
I've lost my vivacity for life, for everything
Am I just tired? Stressed? Or depressed?
Someone take me away from here.

If there is even someone to begin with.

I'm collapsing.

12:06 AM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

You can miss those days but never go back.